Feeling Sad Today

Why do i feel sad?

Why am i scare of loneliness?

Why am i running in vicoius cycle in spite of my effort in getting out of it?

我真的很害怕。不只害怕寂寞，更是害怕未来。心是灰的，心里的天空灰灰的。做什么事都提不起劲。我到底是怎么了？

LS and A are always together, they have each others company, that's why they dun feel the loneliness. For me and doudou, i guess she will be real busy with her partner soon. By that time.....really dunno where to look for her when i need a fren. SHe knows me best. But frens come and go. Chemistry come and go too. Nothing is forever. There might be lots of chemistry bet certain people. But as time goes by, reaction gets lesser. U either need a catalyst or u find new reaction from others. So...is this reality?

I am lost in my direction once more. Couldn't find my way back. Not young anymore, and i am clear that that wun be any prince coming my way. I am not Snow white, I am not the lead in the fairy tales. Fairy tales dun exist in real life, that's why it's call a Fairy tale.

为什么会有一种一无所有的感觉？前一阵子不是好好的吗？
我不想做孤魂野鬼。 ：（

我还是一个幼稚，喜欢抱娃娃的女生。