The Truth Hurts

Yesterday, 13 Sept.
I was hurt again. It added on to the injury. Another blow fell on me. And i collapsed. Should i write all these down? And i remind myself of all these sad things again and again each time i enter my blog?

Panda and SJ encouraged me.......and i really appreciate that. How am i going to face the usual things......i really dunno. I lsot completely.

This morning i kept thinking, should i go on with it? Play with him? Duet is duet? No....duet is not just duet.......it's not just simply duet. It's not just the playing.

In a dilenma......thinking and thinking, and thot maybe i should sms him about that question. And well.....he sms me at that moment, the same question that i was going to ask. And he thanked me for my decision. That song keep ringing in my head.....and it just seem......the song is asking me not to give it up. 如果真的放弃了，真的是非常非常可惜的。

无可奈何，我必须放弃。放弃了我这几年最在乎的人。放弃了最伤我的心的人。他从此在我的脑海和电脑里消失。我把他从我的脑海和电脑里删除了。我不知道以后会怎样面对他，也不知道我们是不是就这样结束了。只能把一切看开，竭尽所能地把他忘记。梦里不再有他，心里不再有他。

从伤痛中站起来对我来说并不容易，我不知道我的伤么时候才会康复。心里的伤口一直在流血，流啊流啊......不知道什么时候才会停止。

农历七月快要结束了，我也快要回家了。回了之后，你再也不会看到我了，明年我还会在这里吗？ 我也不知道了。 再见，松毅......